The battle I lost Watching the elevator doors opening before me my vision blurred in disbelief of what I just did. Did that conversation just happen? Had I really made a life altering choice in that moment? A small hand rested on my shoulder supporting my decision as I held my box of belongings. My sophomore year at Texas Tech University was proving to be more challenging than I anticipated. A normal week for me includes 5 classes, 3 jobs, and 1 girlfriend. The classes are pretty standard and 2 of the three jobs are not worth mentioning, however, ...

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What is the resistance If you are a fan of Star Wars I apologize, the Resistance I refer to is not the fight against the Empire, but a different battle altogether. Last year when my journey as as writer really began, I read a book called, The War of Art, by Steven Pressfield. This is not a complicated read and I highly recommend it to any struggling artist. When I say struggling, I don’t mean someone who is practicing their art every day and trying to make a living. What I mean is someone who wakes up and does ...

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I just stood there, no plan. Eyes closed. Body still. Every bead hits my head with its own agenda then rolls down creating the only motion in the room.My motionlessness does not reflect the storm raging inside my head.“I screwed up.”“What was I thinking?”“I was too careless.”“Did we move too fast?”“What now?”“What am I going to do for money? How am I going to pay bills? What am I supposed to do now?”I stand there in the shower rehearsing the conversations and decisions that led me to this point. I know without a shadow of doubt, that my first ...

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